Kylie is sleeping more during the night. Lately she goes to sleep around 10-11pm and sleeps for around 7 hours. We don't get this every night but we love the fact that her sleep is stretching out.
She's also playing more during the day- 30 minutes to an hour. She's fascinated with her plastic, rattling toys; not so much with her softer stuffed animals. Her playtime is such a joy to us. She's so smiley and happy and it's fun just to watch her explore.
She gets the 5:00pm fussies where nothing will really soothe her (not even nursing). She'll settle for just a bit and then she is the QUEEN of fussy from 7:00 to 8:30 or 9:00pm. Lots of pitiful crying. Karen and I just grit our teeth and ride it out. We do best when we can tag-team our inconsolable blob of a baby. Each time she does it, we discuss whether she might be teething (we really don't think so), how much sleep she's gotten during the day (usually the perfect amount), what I've eaten (did I have anything with onions?) and whether it's a growth spurt.
Yesterday I went to the mall to look at baby clothes. As I was shopping, pregnant shoppers around me would look at my belly. I could practically see their thoughts of "Well, there is a belly there but I can't tell if it's a pregnant belly". So they look away instead of giving me that special smile that only pregnant women share with each other. These days, I'm casting that special smile to mothers with little babies. It's a smile that says, "It's hard, it's wonderful, and I'm with you babe--hang in there".
But back to the belly business. I've read several blogs of moms of babies around 3-4 months of age. It seems that we are all feeling the pressure to start losing the rest of our baby weight, to get back in shape, and to get back into our pre-pregnancy clothes.
I wonder where this pressure comes from? My wife, family and friends aren't saying anything of the sort. But I still feel it. There's this very loud voice in my head that says, "All right. You've had your three months of rest and recovery. It's time to stop eating so damn much and to get your ass in shape!!"
During Kylie's naps, I could get on the treadmill or go to the pool or try to get to a Jazzercise class. I think I would probably feel better if I did. But instead I do other things that nurture me-like reading blogs, or cleaning our home and cooking or scrapbooking.
I tell you, the thought of exercising just makes me feel tired. I think, "Good grief, is it time to get back on that wagon?" Can't I extend my permission slip just a few more weeks (or months)?
Anyway, to add to this rambling post, here's a photograph I took the other day. This is the nightstand in Kylie's nursery that sits between my glider and Karen's chair. I love this photo. To me, it represents everything that is momma & baby right now. It's overflowing with the breast pump and water glasses and toys and our books and magazines and baby books.

Lastly, I downloaded some video we've shot of Kylie over the past few days. I've got one video posted to my old website (ha!! here's a test for my family. Do you even remember that website? It's got web.mac.com at the start of the web address.) I was going to provide a link but then realized that this website has my last name all over it. I don't think it's prudent to post a link here on blogger. So now I'm trying to decide if I should upload it to youtube. It's the kind of video footage that probably only family would want to watch so I'm undecided about it.
Anyway, if you made it all the way to bottom of this long, rambling post, I suppose I should reward you with some Kylie pictures.
-Wendy
